disappear
The only words to describe this would be “out of character”. It was like you were a different person moving in the exact same body. His influence and charm, you could not resist. Don’t blame yourself, because nobody blames you.
A lustful encounter that went a bit too far. Not exactly the way it was supposed to turn out. Accidents happen and sometimes they’re fun. A page in your book that you can now turn over.
Giving yourself to him was not worth forsaking your morals. You made it clear you are no longer friends and will no longer talk. Drastic measures to protect yourself. If only he had a chance to say goodbye.